This is NOT an April Fool's Joke

There must be something about this time of year that just gets me wanting to get my butt in gear.  Last year on April 1st, I started the self made program that got me down to 261.5 lbs.  Today, I signed up for Weight Watchers...again.  No lie, no joke.  I have struggled a lot in the past several months and I just have to get it together.  I've been trying for several months to do it on my own and I haven't been able to do it, at least not consistently.  I think that the structure and accountability of the program could be what I need.

Like I stated in my last entry, I have really been down on myself about gaining this weight back.  I am hovering too close to 300 again and I don't like it.  It's kinda freakin' me out.  I just need to do this.  I am so glad I didn't get rid of my "fat clothes," because I'd have nothing nice to wear right now.

I'm just sucking it all up, inhaling deeply and just exhaling, setting all the negativity free.  I know plenty of people that would do this for me if they could and, man, don't I wish that was possible.