People are Starting to Notice

I, however, am still in denial.  I WANT to notice.  I've even been taking photos of myself with my family and my face looks as puffy as ever.  I know I had a double chin at this point on the way up to my highest weight ever, but I wonder if I will ever look like, or believe that I look normal. 

I stepped on the scale this morning, after having a cheeseburger WITH mayo AND a small order of fries.  I still went down.  260.5 lbs. today is what my Taylor scale told me with its red glowing screen.  I am only 20.5 pounds from my wedding weight.  I am 79.5 lbs. down from my highest weight EVER. 

I am down almost 80 lbs from here.  I can barely look at myself, this photo makes me so sad.  I knew I didn't like it when it was taken, but I hadn't looked at it in a while, apparently.  I think I can see it now. 



Okay, there is a change.  I can see it now.  But that first picture is from 3 years ago.  I can't even tell you what took me so long.  I guess it took the reality of the fragility of time to wake me up.  I have to go absorb this.