My Ever Expanding Virtual Library
Another book has made its way to my virtual bookshelf. Chris Powell's Choose More, Lose More for Life. I am reading this book along with John Eldredge's Beautiful Outlaw, as recommended by James T. Harris on his Facebook page. I am also trying to read The Blue Zones by Dan Buettner, The Success Principles by Jack Canfield and The Fast Diet by Michael Mosley and Mimi Spencer. The first two are the most recently acquired.
The thing about each of these books is that, which the exception of the last, they were all recommended to me. My friend Simone is reading Choose More, Lose More for Life. She's had great success with it so far and since I've been hanging out between 278 and 280 for the past couple of weeks, I thought it couldn't hurt to spice things up a bit on the dietary front. I'm in chapter 2 and just got through the first battery of questions. What I have come to determine is that a) I don't hate myself, b) I think I have a pretty good outlook on my life, and c) I am not at rock bottom. I know that usually people have to hit rock bottom to start climbing their way out of the seemingly deep abyss their lives have become. I don't think I'm there. I think that I have eluded the bottom and have managed to somehow stay closer to the exit than some people. Some people just need to get so sick and tired of themselves and their circumstances to make changes. I don't hate myself. I am fat, very fat, but I think I'm pretty great. I can knit, I'm funny, I genuinely care about people. The main reason I am doing this and doing it now, is because I can't put it off anymore. I can no longer procrastinate living. I want to run. I have wanted to run for a long time. I run now. I don't run as I would like to, but that will take practice and training and I am working on that. I'm a runner.
I was checking out the HAES movement, Health at Every Size. I believe that if you can move, you should, no matter what size you are. If you are comfortable with you, do you. No one else can do it for you. If HAES is what works for you, good. Right now, what works for me is training for a marathon. If weight comes off, it does. I am not trying to fit into a size 0. That is not my goal. My goal is to run a marathon.
I am building the runner I want to be. To build that runner, I need to eat healthily. I need to weight train, which I TOTALLY love. I have always loved weight lifting. I love the challenge of the weights. I love to push myself. I love to feel strong. The runner I want to be is intelligent and knows things about running and health and nutrition. The runner I want to be consults with other runners and is inspired by running quotes. That woman, who is a runner, is also a wife and a mom, a knitter and a reader. She is a daughter and a friend to her mother. She is a supportive sister and a genuine friend to her friends. That woman who I am and am growing into being is awesome. It is only because of this journey I am on and growing into and experiencing that I can move forward without self loathing. I am doing this because I care about myself and I want to do what's best for me, which in turn is what's best for my husband and son and family and friends.
I am hoping that, because of my lifestyle changes over the past three months, I will be able to go off my blood pressure and hyperlipidemia medications. I am hoping that running and training will help me become more organized. I am hoping one day my house will be clean and I will have a whole life routine. Right now, I will take what I have and add little by little. Right now, I will be grateful and humbled by my blessings.
The thing about each of these books is that, which the exception of the last, they were all recommended to me. My friend Simone is reading Choose More, Lose More for Life. She's had great success with it so far and since I've been hanging out between 278 and 280 for the past couple of weeks, I thought it couldn't hurt to spice things up a bit on the dietary front. I'm in chapter 2 and just got through the first battery of questions. What I have come to determine is that a) I don't hate myself, b) I think I have a pretty good outlook on my life, and c) I am not at rock bottom. I know that usually people have to hit rock bottom to start climbing their way out of the seemingly deep abyss their lives have become. I don't think I'm there. I think that I have eluded the bottom and have managed to somehow stay closer to the exit than some people. Some people just need to get so sick and tired of themselves and their circumstances to make changes. I don't hate myself. I am fat, very fat, but I think I'm pretty great. I can knit, I'm funny, I genuinely care about people. The main reason I am doing this and doing it now, is because I can't put it off anymore. I can no longer procrastinate living. I want to run. I have wanted to run for a long time. I run now. I don't run as I would like to, but that will take practice and training and I am working on that. I'm a runner.
I was checking out the HAES movement, Health at Every Size. I believe that if you can move, you should, no matter what size you are. If you are comfortable with you, do you. No one else can do it for you. If HAES is what works for you, good. Right now, what works for me is training for a marathon. If weight comes off, it does. I am not trying to fit into a size 0. That is not my goal. My goal is to run a marathon.
I am building the runner I want to be. To build that runner, I need to eat healthily. I need to weight train, which I TOTALLY love. I have always loved weight lifting. I love the challenge of the weights. I love to push myself. I love to feel strong. The runner I want to be is intelligent and knows things about running and health and nutrition. The runner I want to be consults with other runners and is inspired by running quotes. That woman, who is a runner, is also a wife and a mom, a knitter and a reader. She is a daughter and a friend to her mother. She is a supportive sister and a genuine friend to her friends. That woman who I am and am growing into being is awesome. It is only because of this journey I am on and growing into and experiencing that I can move forward without self loathing. I am doing this because I care about myself and I want to do what's best for me, which in turn is what's best for my husband and son and family and friends.
I am hoping that, because of my lifestyle changes over the past three months, I will be able to go off my blood pressure and hyperlipidemia medications. I am hoping that running and training will help me become more organized. I am hoping one day my house will be clean and I will have a whole life routine. Right now, I will take what I have and add little by little. Right now, I will be grateful and humbled by my blessings.
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