And 2014 will soon be upon us...
Dear 2013,
You and I had a good run, actually 5 of them. I am so glad that 39 ended up being a year of change, loss and metamorphosis in every sense of each of those words.
Change: I changed my outlook on eating, sometimes reverting back, but never fully. I changed my dress size from a 28W back to a 22W, sometimes 24W depending on who makes it. I am no longer a 3X, and I am drowning in my winter coat.
Loss: I lost 40 pounds. Sometimes more, sometimes less, but as of today, I went from 313 lbs to 273 lbs in one year. I know people who have done more and others who have done less. I don't care about those people, this is MY journey and I have to live with what I do or not. I am happy to have released 40 pounds back into the world and I feel sorry for the poor dear who finds them. Weight loss wasn't my goal. My goal is to work my way toward a marathon. I don't think I'll get there just yet, but I will get there. I have lofty goals! I also lost my father this year to pancreatic cancer. Through his death, I let go of some other very lofty proverbial weights and even though I didn't wish him gone, I can take comfort knowing that he is with the Lord Jesus and that God will work these things for good. Losing weight, physically or spiritually, is a very freeing and literally uplifting experience.
Metamorphosis: I became a runner. It is the most amazing thing to me. I. Me. I mean, this girl, right here, ran real races with other people running. I never finished last, but even if I would have, I always finished. I was kinda limping at the end of some of those. I am so grateful to three women in particular who helped me get started in this journey. Maria, Manda and Margaret. Maria helped change my thinking, Manda helped me gain muscle, and Margaret helped me believe in myself when I kept not wanting to believe. I believe that I am not the same woman coming out of 2013 that I was going into it.
After midnight, I will post my grandiose plans for 2014, until then, I am going to savor the rest of 2013 and love it for what it was, and that is a catalyst.
All my love,
suzanne
You and I had a good run, actually 5 of them. I am so glad that 39 ended up being a year of change, loss and metamorphosis in every sense of each of those words.
Change: I changed my outlook on eating, sometimes reverting back, but never fully. I changed my dress size from a 28W back to a 22W, sometimes 24W depending on who makes it. I am no longer a 3X, and I am drowning in my winter coat.
Loss: I lost 40 pounds. Sometimes more, sometimes less, but as of today, I went from 313 lbs to 273 lbs in one year. I know people who have done more and others who have done less. I don't care about those people, this is MY journey and I have to live with what I do or not. I am happy to have released 40 pounds back into the world and I feel sorry for the poor dear who finds them. Weight loss wasn't my goal. My goal is to work my way toward a marathon. I don't think I'll get there just yet, but I will get there. I have lofty goals! I also lost my father this year to pancreatic cancer. Through his death, I let go of some other very lofty proverbial weights and even though I didn't wish him gone, I can take comfort knowing that he is with the Lord Jesus and that God will work these things for good. Losing weight, physically or spiritually, is a very freeing and literally uplifting experience.
Metamorphosis: I became a runner. It is the most amazing thing to me. I. Me. I mean, this girl, right here, ran real races with other people running. I never finished last, but even if I would have, I always finished. I was kinda limping at the end of some of those. I am so grateful to three women in particular who helped me get started in this journey. Maria, Manda and Margaret. Maria helped change my thinking, Manda helped me gain muscle, and Margaret helped me believe in myself when I kept not wanting to believe. I believe that I am not the same woman coming out of 2013 that I was going into it.
After midnight, I will post my grandiose plans for 2014, until then, I am going to savor the rest of 2013 and love it for what it was, and that is a catalyst.
All my love,
suzanne
I think you hit many things spot on, Suz. Very inspiring. It is very true the we grow wiser with years. Very proud of your accomplishments, Wishing you all that you strive for in the new year. Love you. Mom
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